"Wake Up! For today is your Day of all Days!" (Dr. Seuss)
It's been a while since I wrote something for Love Thursday but today is special. Today is Sayer's 9th birthday. How did 9 years go by so fast? How is my very first baby standing so tall and grown up? When our baby, Einin, was just a newborn someone said to me, "the days and nights are eternal but the months will fly by". It's so heartbreakingly true. Don't get me wrong, I want them to grow and change and do all of the things that they are meant to do but, every so often, it just feels too fast. Sometimes, I wish I could yell out "FREEZE!" and just take a breath, get my bearings and maybe even clean up the living room while I'm at it.
This day is special for Sayer, of course. He's nine for crying out loud...I mean, that's almost TEN! I remember when I was younger and how desperately I wanted to be older and how the years seem to eek by so slowly. When they were smaller, I would always ask them questions on the morning of their birthday, "Are you taller today?", "Can you run even faster now?" and so on. They would beam and say yes to them all. Overnight they always became faster, taller, wiser...
Lastnight, cuddled in bed with Sayer, I read him Dr. Seuss' Happy Birthday to You. It was magical. You could tell that he was excited and proud about getting older. The story is perfect. It's sweet and full of joy, imagination and optimism. It echoed so much of what I was feeling for Sayer as I read.
If we didn't have birthdays, you wouldn't be you.
If you'd never been born, well then what would you do?
If you'd never been born, well then what would you be?
You might be a fish! Or a toad in a tree!
You might be a doorknob! Or three baked potatoes!
You might be a bag full of hard green tomatoes.
Or worse than all that...Why, you might be a WASN'T!
A Wasn't just isn't. He just isn't present.
But you...you are YOU! And, now isn't that pleasant!
So we'll go to the top of the toppest blue space,
The Official Katroo Birthday Sounding-Off Place!
Come on! Open your mouth and sound off at the sky!
Shout loud at the top of your voice, "I AM I!
I am I!
And I may not know why
But I know that I like it.
Three cheers! I AM I!"
He is he, that is for sure, and he is wonderful. He is deep, soulful, smart and sensitive. He sees things. He asks hard questions and comes up with really insightful theories. I'm so grateful for him. He is my first and he is the one who first changed me into a MOM. He is one of the very best things that has ever happened to me.
Today you are you! That is truer than true!
There is no one alive who is you-er than you!
Shout loud, "I am lucky to be what I am!
Thank goodness I'm not just a clam or a ham
Or a dusty old jar of sour gooseberry jam!
I am what I am! That's a great thing to be!
If I say so myself, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!"
Happy birthday to you, my sweet Sayer. I am so very glad that you are YOU and that you are HERE.