There has been so much change this year and I know that part of this uneasy feeling that I have has to do with that. The only thing that I know for sure is that life is flying by at a dizzying pace and that I'm trying to craft this authentic, meaningful life that feels truly like "me". I want to edit out the chatter and find my own personal recipe of work, art, home, friends and family.
In the process, I am putting new things out into the world. A few weeks ago (yes, it took me this long to tell you) I got my hand slapped. I packaged up my best art pieces, wrote my statement and sent it off to a gallery here. This is what I got in return.
I didn't even tell Steven for 2 weeks. I told Sayer first actually. Sweet boy that he is, he just touched my shoulder and said, "Mommy, I really like your art work. Don't be sad". I think that's why this picture is my favorite this week. It is Sayer's hand in mine and there is certainty there.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset at Lawndale for saying no. In fact, I knew it was unlikely to get a yes on my first try. I did kind of hate that it was a constant contact email though. Kinda made me want to "safe unsubscribe" to be honest. However, I am not going to go down so easy. I'm going to submit again to The Big Show. Now, if they say no to that too, you may find me face flat on my floor at home for a week or two.