Today I am going to work on celebrating all the tiny victories of my day instead of calling myself out for all the things that didn't get done. I have my limits, after all, and I think I'm pushing up against them.
I really dislike my limits. Some days I wish I was just endlessly capable and that I could actually accomplish everything that I have bubbling around in my head. I hate having to choose between two things that I want to do simply because there isn't enough time, energy or resources. I want to have my cake and eat it too. In fact, I want to learn how to make a gourmet cake in my super clean and organized kitchen, complete with sugared flowers, awesome lettering and a homemade lemon curd filling (and do it all with my nails painted, a new drawing done, the kid's clothes folded, my workout done, my client's orders fulfilled and my inbox at zero). Sounds good, right?
The drive to do isn't about seeking perfection, it's a honest feeling of wanting to do all the cool and fun stuff I see in front of me and meet the obligations that I have as well. Yes, I hope that when you come to my house, it's clean and there's not a random pair of my son's underwear in the middle of the living room* or a sink full of dishes but I'm (pretty much) okay with that. I know that someday my house will be clean and my kids will be off on their own and I'll miss the mess. The wanting to do-make-go-see is just part of the way I'm built. On a good day, it's the driving force behind getting my book written, making art, signing up for archery lessons and so on. On a bad day, that drive can manifest in a nasty "not enough" voice that wants to downplay the good in favor of the undone or the poorly done.
Today I am calling that voice out and admitting that I have pushed up against my limits. I blew off getting dressed in favor of workout clothes. I picked up pre-made dinner at Whole Foods so I can go to crossfit. I'm celebrating that I finally made it to Walgreens, even if I did leave my iPhone there in the process. Today my goal is to happily cross off my list what I can do and then call it a day, without adding it up and focusing on the items that remain uncrossed. Today will be a job well done no matter what gets done.
What about you? How do you handle it when you push up against your own limits? I always like to hear what you guys have to say. Hope your day is going to be as productive as mine!
* What IS that underwear in the middle of the floor thing anyway? Why do my kids do that? It's not just underwear either. It's everything! I have even found Lego guys in my freezer! I know I'm not alone in this one but that is an entirely different post. Who knows, maybe I'll just leave my gym shoes and socks in the middle of my kid's bed tonight and see what happens.